I have a crush on my friend who's a girl and I'm a girl. She's extremely skinny with naturally huge boobs. Her face is beautiful. Her personality is adorable. I don't want to have a crush on her. I always liked guys. I never had these feelings for a girl before.
Anonymous

stop ‘never wanting’ & start always wanting. question everything. stop saying ‘why’ & start saying ‘why not’. plug in more cliches here. when it comes down to it, you’re probably becoming more exposed to LGBTIQA* lifestyles & realized, however subconscious it may be, that there is more to sexual identity  & gender identity than we were taught in our eighth grade health class. that in this big, wide, marvelous world, people really do have the ability to look beyond medically classified labels & find love, earths one true healing power, absolutely anywhere.
but let me ask you this: since you started off talking about her weight, her breast size, & her face, (her personality is the absolute last thing you mentioned) could it be that you are thinking too physically? when i was first ‘experimenting’ i found that i always geared towards the ‘hott’ or ‘sexy’ girls, & when i thought i loved them, i just loved our sexual chemistry. but then i truly fell in love, found my fraternal soul & looks didnt matter at all. i could be going too into this question, but just be careful. 
yes, we as LGBTQIA* people are beginning to be accepted more & more but things still do get very out of line. take care, & i hope you find your path little star! 

in the hospitalagain, hope that explains the sudden absence
attempting another 28 day program & i will update when i can.
im gonna paint my nails like scarabs & fuckin’ chainsmoke the whooooooooole way there. smuggled in e-cigs just dont do the trick.

dollydelta:

I got very drunk and injured myself.

dollydelta:

I got very drunk and injured myself.

I understand your response to that ask and agree with all of it except when you said "death isn't beautiful". I'm not saying it is, but why can't it be? It's.. a part of life, really. Who says it can't be any more or equally beautiful as life itself? Living and dying is the only thing that every single atom in this universe completely shares. I'm not trying to sound ignorant (I'm sure I do) but it's just a thought.
Anonymous

it depends on what context you’re referring to. like the example youre providing is indeed something i can see, but i was talking more along the lines of the whole ‘killing myself softly’ aesthetic / mentality that ive noticed, was a part of, & luckily escaped. recognizing & validating that yes, death is an inexorable part of life & as such can be feared/revered/appreciated is much different than posting google image results of suicidal phrases & making collages on your instagram of self harm & pixel hearts.